#SongoftheDay I've Tried Everything (Eurythmics)

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I have been incredibly ill. Emergency room, IV fluids, diagnostic equipment, more meds. 

I'm so sorry for taking off without letting you know what was going on, but there are times when it can't be helped. I've missed sharing music with you. I think in terms of posts I want to write, but for a while I couldn't come near my computer. Now I don't remember what I wanted to say. Figures, eh?

This song came into my mind at a time when I truly believed I would never get better. Time and treatment didn't seem to make any difference. I was just so sick all the time.

At this point, I don't know whether I'm "better" or whether the new medication I'm on is just keeping me stable. More medical appointments to come. 

Meanwhile, various other portions of my life are falling apart. Not my relationship. That's strong. My partner has been taking good care of me physically, and I'm trying to take good care of him emotionally, but now is not a happy time.

I will be back, but I'm not sure when. Just wanted to check in with you and let you know I still exist. (A friend of mine recently wrote me an email that simply read: "Are you alive?" Um. Yes. Barely.) But I've got a lot on my plate right now. I'll let you know more when I return.

Thank you for the years you've spent reading my words. You don't know what it means to me.


If you're wondering how you can support me in bringing you songs and anecdotes, the easiest thing you can do is buy my books (most are for adults only!) or check them out from your local library. 

Supporting my AudioErotica endeavour on Patreon would also help me hugely.

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See you soon!
Giselle


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