A Friendly Musical Visit Every Day

I just had this random memory of a time when my partner and I were first going out (well, staying in, more like).  I was actually working a job outside the home at the time. It was only a two-week gig, but I'm used to the freedom of a writer's life.  My partner was always on my mind. I thought about him obsessively, like a teenager. I felt young again.  It was amazing. The job I had was out by the airport.  Since I have a terrible phone plan with no data, I would run over to the hotel across the street and use their wifi to send naughty emails to this man I was so wrapped up in. I always wanted to be in his arms, but the best I could do during those daytime shifts was think about him and email him and crave him like candy. Now I sleep beside him every night. Often I feel lucky to have this incredible person by my side, but sometimes I miss that spark of the beginning stages of a relationship. I wish I knew how to maintain that through cancer, caregiving, and life i...

While we were checking out my partner's new house, back when he bought it in 2021, I found a closet that seemed like it would be good to hide in. When I said so to my partner, he replied that he doubted we would be playing hide-and-seek. I told him I just like hiding sometimes and he got sad. He remembers my story of finding my mother hiding from my father in a closet when I was a child. I joined her and we hid there together for an entire afternoon. It's the only thing I remember ever doing, just the two of us, throughout my entire childhood. It upsets my partner when I hide because he thinks I'm hiding from him. I'm not. He is not an abusive man. He is very kind and caring.  I hide sometimes because my PTSD is triggered, and he always thinks it's his fault somehow. It's not. The last time I hid, I'd been lying on the bed watching stuff on YouTube when I realized I was hungry and cold and I hadn't moved for a while. All those feelings in my body took me...

 That Bouquet track we listened to the other day reminded me somewhat of Snowblink, which made me realize I've never played Snowblink here on the blog. So here's some Snowblink! If you're wondering how you can support me in bringing you songs and visits every day, the easiest thing you can do is tell your friends about the site. Tell anyone you know--particularly people who are isolated and enjoy music. Readers of adult fiction can also buy my books or check them out from your local library. Supporting my  AudioErotica  endeavour on  Patreon  would also help me hugely! I'm also an  Amazon Influencer,  so hopefully I can make a little pocket change when you buy stuff by clicking through  my affiliate links . But you don't HAVE to do any of that. I'm very happy to get a daily visit from you, so just keep coming back. Oh, and I also recommend hitting the "Subscribe" button at the top of the page so you won't miss a song! See you tomorrow! Giselle

 We listened to an Imogen Heap cover yesterday, so today we've got the original. It wasn't easy choosing a song--I think of this entire album as one entity, and it evokes more nostalgia in me than most CDs I've purchased as an adult. I'm not really sure why that is.  I'm thinking. Nope, not coming up with an answer. If you're wondering how you can support me in bringing you songs and visits every day, the easiest thing you can do is tell your friends about the site. Tell anyone you know--particularly people who are isolated and enjoy music. Readers of adult fiction can also buy my books or check them out from your local library. Supporting my  AudioErotica  endeavour on  Patreon  would also help me hugely! I'm also an  Amazon Influencer,  so hopefully I can make a little pocket change when you buy stuff by clicking through  my affiliate links . But you don't HAVE to do any of that. I'm very happy to get a daily visit from you, so just keep co...

I've featured Pantayo previously on the blog, but that was before their self-titled album had been released. Now that it's out and I've listened to it (and listened and listened and listened), I pretty much want to feature every song. I've probably listened to Heto Na a dozen times today alone, and it's got a fun music video, so maybe we'll come back to that one. Today we're listening to Kaingin because I cannot get enough of this track. I love it. Buy the album here:  https://pantayo.bandcamp.com/album/pantayo If you're wondering how you can support me in bringing you songs and visits every day, the easiest thing you can do is tell your friends about the site. Tell anyone you know--particularly people who are isolated and enjoy music. Readers of adult fiction can also buy my books or check them out from your local library. Supporting my  AudioErotica  endeavour on  Patreon  would also help me hugely! I'm also an  Amazon Influencer,  so ...

This track comes from an upcoming Backxwash album with a very catchy title. " God Has Nothing To Do With This Leave Him Out Of It " comes out May 30th 2020, but you can pre-oder it right now . Go ahead. Pre-order your copy . I won't keep you. If you're wondering how you can support me in bringing you songs and visits every day, the easiest thing you can do is tell your friends about the site. Tell anyone you know--particularly people who are isolated and enjoy music. Readers of adult fiction can also buy my books or check them out from your local library. Supporting my  AudioErotica  endeavour on  Patreon  would also help me hugely! I'm also an  Amazon Influencer,  so hopefully I can make a little pocket change when you buy stuff by clicking through  my affiliate links . But you don't HAVE to do any of that. I'm very happy to get a daily visit from you, so just keep coming back. Oh, and I also recommend hitting the "Subscribe" but...

When I was looking up the song "Fever" to use in yesterday's post, I came across this prescient track, whose title could not be more suitable for these pandemic times.  I thought wow, someone must have written that and got it up real quick, but nope. This song came out over a decade ago. If you're wondering how you can support me in bringing you songs and visits every day, the easiest thing you can do is tell your friends about the site. Tell anyone you know--particularly people who are isolated and enjoy music. Readers of adult fiction can also buy my books or check them out from your local library. Supporting my  AudioErotica  endeavour on  Patreon  would also help me hugely! I'm also an  Amazon Influencer,  so hopefully I can make a little pocket change when you buy stuff by clicking through  my affiliate links . But you don't HAVE to do any of that. I'm very happy to get a daily visit from you, so just keep coming back. Oh, and I ...

Last month, rook&nomie put out a new album called " me&you ." I keep trying to listen to it, but I can't get past this track. I just keep listening to it over and over again. Maybe one day I'll listen to the rest of the album. But not today. Today I'm hooked on "azure paler than the sky." Do as I say, not as I do. Head on over to https://rookandnomie.bandcamp.com and stream the holy hell out of me&you . Buy now ! (I wish I could push my own books as hard as I push other people's music! But, alas, the critically low self-esteem gets in the way...) If you're wondering how you can support me in bringing you songs and visits every day, the easiest thing you can do is tell your friends about the site. Tell anyone you know--particularly people who are isolated and enjoy music. Readers of adult fiction can also buy my books or check them out from your local library. Supporting my  AudioErotica  endeavour on  Patreon  would also...

Woke up at 4 in the morning to body aches so bad they couldn't be ignored. Naturally, the Purity Ring song " Bodyache " has been occupying space in my head.  Not that there's much room inside my head.  The congestion in my chest moved into my sinuses while I was asleep. Every day is a new and exciting adventure in illness. Anyhoo, I've already featured Bodyache as a song of the day , so I've chosen another from the same album ( Another Eternity ). I'll just sit here and listen to it while I wait for my NeoCitran to kick in. If you're wondering how you can support me in bringing you songs and visits every day, the easiest thing you can do is tell your friends about the site. Tell anyone you know--particularly people who are isolated and enjoy music. Readers of adult fiction can also buy my books or check them out from your local library. Supporting my  AudioErotica  endeavour on  Patreon  would also help me hugely! I'm also an  Amazon...

Beck has a new album out, and I have a migraine. Those two things are not related--at least, not causally. In fact, I've been under the covers for hours to block out this horrible greyish light that always seems to bring on migraines.  Meanwhile, a neighbour's yappy dog has been barking for the past two hours. NON. STOP. So I've been blasting my brain with this song on repeat.  It's pretty calming. My migraine thinks so. If you're wondering how you can support me in bringing you songs and visits every day, the easiest thing you can do is tell your friends about the site. Tell anyone you know--particularly people who are isolated and enjoy music. Readers of adult fiction can also buy my books or check them out from your local library. Supporting my  AudioErotica  endeavour on  Patreon  would also help me hugely! I'm also an  Amazon Influencer,  so hopefully I can make a little pocket change when you buy stuff by clicking through...

Yesterday we listened to Dido's Lament. Today we'll listen to Dido. It's interesting, being in a romantic relationship with someone I've known all my adult life. In the car one time, my partner pulled out a mix tape I made him twenty years ago. Okay, a mix CD.  I couldn't believe he still had it.  It was mostly Jewel, but this Dido track made an appearance. When I laughed, he said, "What? I like this music. Don't you?" I was like... I don't know.  It reminds me of being young.  I don't know whether I like it, or I just like feeling young again. If you're wondering how you can support me in bringing you songs and visits every day, the easiest thing you can do is tell your friends about the site. Tell anyone you know--particularly people who are isolated and enjoy music. Readers of adult fiction can also buy my books or check them out from your local library. Supporting my  AudioErotica  endeavour on  Patreon  would also help m...

Another funny story. This one's about my about my mother, of all people, calling me old. Last week, I finally got to see A Tribe Called Red LIVE. It was a phenomenal experience. I've been a fan of their sound for years, but it's only a SOUND until you get to a live show. Live, you get the vibe--I mean the actual vibration. You get the music inside you. I felt it in my heart, especially. Physically. Like, it grabs you in the heart and holds on. I brought my mom to this show. While I danced and screamed, she looked around at the crowd. Eventually she tapped me on the shoulder and shouted into my ear, "I thought this group appealed to people your age, but it's actually a lot of YOUNG PEOPLE here." I laughed so hard. I was like, "I thought I was a young person." My mom said, "No, these people are WAY younger than you." She had a point. I've got a decade or two on most of that crowd. You know you've reached "a certain ...

We couldn't listen to yesterday's Frou Frou track without now listening to this one. The first time I heard this song, I was WAITING IN LINE (for real!) to try on a pair of pants at a store called Jacob, which has since gone out of business.  I loved that store. There was a location close to my office in the early 2000s, and I shopped there all the time because they had a great clearance section on the lower level. I'm always looking for a deal. Not just that, but they sold clothes that actually fit me. Twenty years ago, it was hard to find businessy clothes in smaller sizes, and they also had pants that were the right length for my short little legs. I miss that store. I miss you, Jacob! If you're wondering how you can support me in bringing you songs and visits every day, the easiest thing you can do is tell your friends about the site. Tell anyone you know--particularly people who are isolated and enjoy music. Readers of adult fiction can also buy my books...

This is my mantra, these days: Let Go. I maintain such a strong grip on expectations, and often I have no control over whether or not the things I want will actually come to fruition. My mother's illness is an obvious example: I can support her to the best of my abilities, but I can't cure cancer. My relationship is another realm where I'm trying hard to abandon my very strong attachment to end results. We are working hard to achieve the future we want, but there are so many obstacles in our way that it often feels we will never surmount them. I'm trying to find a happy medium, between striving to achieve relationship goals and sitting with the inner knowledge that the future might not be what we've planned. It might be something altogether different. If you're wondering how you can support me in bringing you songs and visits every day, the easiest thing you can do is tell your friends about the site. Tell anyone you know--particularly people who are ...

Every time I hear this song, I think what a great erotic novel it would make. The problem is that I can never figure out what the book would be about, which is why I haven't written it yet. That said, I've written a lot of books without knowing what they're about. I think I'm just afraid I could never live up to the steamy, sexy heat this song provides. Vinyl for this one is available at a really reasonable price! If you're wondering how you can support me in bringing you songs and visits every day, the easiest thing you can do is tell your friends about the site. Tell anyone you know--particularly people who are isolated and enjoy music. Readers of adult fiction can also buy my books or check them out from your local library. Supporting my  AudioErotica  endeavour on  Patreon  would also help me hugely! But you don't HAVE to do any of that. I'm very happy to get a daily visit from you, so just keep coming back. Oh, and I also recommend hitting t...

I love this song so much that I play it for everyone. The reaction is always the same: they give me this blank stare and ask, " This song? You love this song?" Nobody seems to get it. Maybe it's the kind of tune that appeals mostly to writers and other creatives. Even though it's about drinking in L.A. at 26, it speaks to me as much now, as a midlife crisis person, as it would have when I was experiencing my quarter-life crisis in my mid-twenties. Strangely enough, I became a writer at that stage. I'd been working in business and I knew I couldn't spend the rest of my days toadying to rich asshole clients. I needed to do something different. Now I'm closing in on 40, having spent all this time writing professionally. I'm pleased to say I'm coming out the other side of the career portion of my midlife crisis. Eight to ten months ago, I'd pretty much stopped working because it just seemed so pointless. Old work was selling, but everythi...

Yesterday I promised to bring you the song that is played during an episode of the Irish comedy Father Ted called "Think Fast, Father Ted." During the episode, the DJ priest has forgotten all his records. The only song he as at his disposal is this one. No one at the dance seems to get too desperately sick of it, despite the repetition, and I'm not sure I would either. Just in case you've never heard of this TV show from the 90s , someone has spliced together all the scened featuring Ghost Town for YouTube. Here you go: If you're wondering how you can support me in bringing you songs and visits every day, the easiest thing you can do is tell your friends about the site. Tell anyone you know--particularly people who are isolated and enjoy music. Readers of adult fiction can also buy my books or check them out from your local library. Supporting my  AudioErotica  endeavour on  Patreon  would also help me hugely! But you don't HAVE to do any of tha...

Oh, this song... I've started checking out CDs from the library (actual physical CDs from the actual physical library) and was lucky enough to find two albums from Purity Ring at one location. I was familiar with Purity Ring from back when I used to listen to CBC Radio Two.  Pretty sure they got a lot of airplay on a show called The Signal, which I miss every day of my life. This song, Bodyache, is the second track on an album called ANOTHER ETERNITY .  It's so pleading and pained, and when I heard the line "I cried until my body ached," I knew I'd come back to this song when I needed it. And I did, the next time I cried like that--a full-body sob, to the point where you feel like you're going to throw up and you think it's impossible for more tears to come out. And then they do and you're just like... how? The funny (?) thing about midlife (at least, for me), is that your hormones take you back to your teenage years (at least, that's wha...