#SongoftheDay Wouldn't It Be Good (Placebo)
Isn't it wild, being in your forties and your mom still lectures you for things you did when you were an actual child?
Actually, I hope this isn't your experience. I hope you have parents who support you instead of shaming you. I hear those parents really do exist! When you grow up in a house of trauma, you never quite believe that there are functional families out there in the world, but I have it on good authority they're out there somewhere.
Not here, though!
I was talking to my mom earlier (you might have guessed...) and she brought up this incident where an adult asked me if I wanted to do something and I said no, I don't want to do that. It was nothing bad or weird! This adult was one of the only positive role models I had, aside from teachers.
To this day my mother is "so embarrassed" that I--a mere CHILD--had the audacity to advocate for my own comfort and personal preference instead of just going along with what other people wanted. My mother is the type who goes along. If there is a boat, it will not be rocked--not by her.
I've always advocated for myself. Over-advocated, if I'm honest. Apparently that's common among traumatized people who endured parental neglect as kids. We didn't have anyone to stand up for us back then, and now we go overboard.
Anyway, I am mired in middle age and I still have to put up with my mother telling me how ashamed she is of things I did in childhood--things that weren't even bad or wrong.
Actually, I hope this isn't your experience. I hope you have parents who support you instead of shaming you. I hear those parents really do exist! When you grow up in a house of trauma, you never quite believe that there are functional families out there in the world, but I have it on good authority they're out there somewhere.
Not here, though!
I was talking to my mom earlier (you might have guessed...) and she brought up this incident where an adult asked me if I wanted to do something and I said no, I don't want to do that. It was nothing bad or weird! This adult was one of the only positive role models I had, aside from teachers.
To this day my mother is "so embarrassed" that I--a mere CHILD--had the audacity to advocate for my own comfort and personal preference instead of just going along with what other people wanted. My mother is the type who goes along. If there is a boat, it will not be rocked--not by her.
I've always advocated for myself. Over-advocated, if I'm honest. Apparently that's common among traumatized people who endured parental neglect as kids. We didn't have anyone to stand up for us back then, and now we go overboard.
Anyway, I am mired in middle age and I still have to put up with my mother telling me how ashamed she is of things I did in childhood--things that weren't even bad or wrong.
The mature adult in this situation did not shame me or lecture me. She was the type of person who always advocated for other people and herself, and encouraged others to do the same.
I bet she would have made a great mom...
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I bet she would have made a great mom...
Warning: there is strobing in this video.
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