#SongoftheDay Cabaret (Louis Armstrong)

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Sorry for taking off without letting you know what was going on. I didn't quite know what was going on, myself. 

On the face of it, I just didn't feel like I had anything to share with you, music-wise. I'd been scrambling for songs, and that didn't suit the spirit of this here blog. But I think my health issues and mental health issues were actually weighing me down so badly I just wanted to hide.

My brother had routine dental surgery that went wrong in a way I didn't even know it could go wrong, and he is suffering tremendously. He doesn't complain, but you can see it in a person's face (the sunken eyes, etc) when they are in terrible pain. I know because I see it in the mirror pretty much every day.

I am worried about my brother, but I'm also worried about myself, because the thing that happened to him actually clarified one of the health issues I've been experiencing (we have some of the same medical problems) and now I am scared out of my mind. For my brother and for myself.

I realized last night that I have so many medical problems that even if one of them magically went away (which is extremely unlikely), my health would still be terrible. And aging doesn't exactly improve a person's physical condition.

Depression and anxiety have taken over my body. I'm in rough shape.

I heard this rendition of Cabaret on an episode of Northern Exposure from 1992 and I loved it. I'd never heard it before. And then I watched an old episode of that show Cold Case (remember that?) and pretty much all the music in that episode was Louis Armstrong. I thought that was a neat coincidence, choosing two random TV shows on my PVR and getting all that Louis Armstrong.

The "cradle to tomb" line sticks with me.


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