#SongoftheDay Raindrops Keep Fallin' On My Head (B.J. Thomas)

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I used to love the rain. I used to love storms. I still do, in many ways, but my problem is that rain is my biggest migraine trigger. And we're not talking "Oh boy, I've got a whopping headache." We're talking... well, I'll use last night as an example: 

It's raining this morning, and the time coming up on rain is when my symptoms tend to peak. So last night I was completely incapacitated. Could not move. Could not function. I think I was in bed by seven, intending to get up, but unable to even brush my teeth or go to the bathroom. I woke up at 3:45 (in the morning) with vertigo, horrible pain in my head, and still unable to move.

Last week when this same thing happened, I was so unable to move that I was lying on my side and I wanted to roll over so my arm wouldn't go numb, but I didn't even have the energy to do that. I couldn't roll.

A couple days ago, my partner had to carry my to bed. He took my shoes off and everything. I felt like a child, but in a good way: cared for. But also incapacitated by pain.

I'm still in pain now. It hurts to look at this screen, even though I have the brightness turned way down. I typo almost every word because my dexterity and coordination are so poor. But I like talking to you, and I appreciate that you're here to read my words. You bring a little spark to a very dark life.


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