#SongoftheDay For Once in My Life (Nancy Wilson)

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There's so much I could write, in relation to this song, about caregiving and the worn-out feeling that comes with being needed too much and for too long. 

I could write five thousand posts about times caregiving tasks have triggered a trauma response in me, because my busted limbic system is stuck in a time when I was neglected and parentified in childhood, when I couldn't be a proper kid because I had to take care of other people in a home that was not safe.

But it's going to be exhausting, if I write all that, and I would much rather sit back and listen to this beautiful performance while rain and fall leaves pelt my window, and the sky looms ominous and grey over the neighbour's roofline. 

I'd rather close my eyes for a while and disappear into this song.


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Giselle


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