#SongoftheDay Don't Wanna Lose You (Gloria Estefan)

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I started singing this song while making a YouTube video and had to cut myself off because I was afraid I was copyright-infringing. I sing to self-soothe when I'm feeling anxious and depressed, which I am these days. Big-time. 

Apparently depression and anxiety can get worse in perimenopause, so great. Living with depression for more than twenty years wasn't enough of a challenge. Let's make it harder at mid-life.

Self-care is something I struggle with, when I'm in this mode. And by "self-care" I'm not talking about candlelight bubble baths, although bathing is something that doesn't happen. I struggle to do basics things: brushing my teeth, showering, going to bed, getting out of bed.

One thing I've noticed is that I'm better at taking care of myself when my partner and I are physically in the same place. He is good at routines, and I guess I just emulate him. He eats breakfast, so I eat breakfast. He takes care of his hygiene, so I do too. And, honestly, even when I'm in a depressive episode, I'm always just that little bit happier when I'm around him, because I like him and I love him and just being together improves my life.


If you're wondering how you can support me in bringing you songs and anecdotes, the easiest thing you can do is buy my books (most are for adults only!) or check them out from your local library. 

Supporting my AudioErotica endeavour on Patreon would also help me hugely.

I'm also an Amazon Influencer, so hopefully I can make a little pocket change when you buy stuff by clicking through my affiliate links.

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See you soon!
Giselle


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