#SongoftheDay Open (San Fermin)

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I can't believe it's taken me so long to feature this song. I was so sure I'd written about it... and then I realized, yes, I have written about it... in a post at my Donuts and Desires blog.

This is what I wrote there:

I spent an entire evening listening to Open in my kitchen, in a trance, holding my headphones and asking, "What does it mean? WHAT DOES IT ALL MEAN???" while simultaneously being very glad I live alone.

I have persistent memories of doing this (the trance dance to this song--and always in my kitchen) because I've done it many times.

This song helped me through some major depressive episodes. As soon as I played it today, that deep depression came to mind. I am so grateful I don't feel that way now. Although I know it could easily come back (I've been chronically depressed for 20 years), I've never felt so well as I do now that I no longer live alone. Waking up next to my partner makes me feel the day has purpose and structure. I need that.

I know I shouldn't rely on someone else's presence in my life to maintain my mental health, but my partner really does help me. Just by existing.



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See you tomorrow!
Giselle

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