#SongoftheDay Tears of a Clown (Smokey Robinson and the Miracles)

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I remember this song clearly from my childhood, but I'd never listened to the lyrics until recently. That's true of most of the soundtrack of my childhood.

"If I appear to be carefree, it's only to camouflage my sadness."

As a chronically depressed person, I feel this sentiment hard. I don't pretend to be not-sad on the internet. I'm pretty open about my depression, even when I'm being self-effacing and trying to sell books.

It's a different story with my family. Mental illness is strongly stigmatized, despite the fact that many of my family members are struggling with everything from depression and anxiety to schizophrenia. It's still something you're shamed for.

So, with my family, I smile and pretend everything's okay even when it's not. It hurts and it's hard and I hope nobody reading these words is in this same position, because it honestly sucks to pretend.



If you're wondering how you can support me in bringing you songs and visits every day, the easiest thing you can do is tell your friends about the site. Tell anyone you know--particularly people who are isolated and enjoy music.

Readers of adult fiction can also buy my books or check them out from your local library. Supporting my AudioErotica endeavour on Patreon would also help me hugely!

But you don't HAVE to do any of that. I'm very happy to get a daily visit from you, so just keep coming back.

Oh, and I also recommend hitting the "Subscribe" button at the top of the page so you won't miss a song!

See you tomorrow!
Giselle

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