#SongoftheDay Comfortably Numb (Pink Floyd)

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This is my favourite Pink Floyd song. One of my cats is currently sitting on my belly, watching the video with me, and she seems pretty entertained by it as well. I wonder if my cats share my taste in music. I do leave the radio on for them when I go out. Maybe they resent me for it. Maybe they're country music cats, and I'm torturing them with indie rock.

The reason Comfortably Numb came to mind is that, as I've mentioned here before, things are getting pretty serious between myself and my partner. Thing is, we both need to make a lot of huge changes in our lives before we can be together for good. Getting married seems a lot more complicated at middle age and beyond than it does when you're younger. We've both accumulated so much baggage along the road.

We've been seeing a couples counsellor to help guide us through this time, and he asked us what happens if we don't end up together. I couldn't answer. I didn't want to think about it. I don't want to think about it.

But my partner said, "I numb out." Go numb and die. That's life without each other.

Sounds terrible.



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Giselle

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