#SongoftheDay Mood (24kGoldn ft. Iann Dior)
This song hit me at the perfect moment, the other day. That happens, sometimes. My partner and I were both in the living room. He was on chat with a rep trying to resolve a problem he was having with a piece of tech. Now, my partner is a gentle man, especially where I'm concerned, but when he has tech problems, he gets pissed. I used to help him troubleshoot, but I won't anymore. It's not that he gets mad at me. He just gets angry at his computer or printer or whatever's causing the problem, and I can't handle it. It's only within the past year that I've realized (thanks to lots of therapy) that I've got some significant childhood PTSD shit going on. One thing I've learned about this type of PTSD is that you'll often have emotional flashbacks. So, it's not like remembering a specific event when you were unsafe due to a violent parent, for example--it's more like being triggered by something in your environment, and something inside